July 30, 2004

Ohmygodohmygodohmygodohmygod! Baby girl momma sweety honey chopstick pancake darling? Erma is ALIIIIIIIIIVE!!@@$#!%@$%T^^*&( I miss you too. I hope you're OK. I've been very worried!!!
Bogdan said so @ 03:20 PM

July 29, 2004

Hi Bogdan. I miss you a lot.
Erma said so @ 10:55 PM

July 27, 2004

Last night, Bill Clinton made a speech in Boston on behalf of the Democrats, and it was fantastic! This man is absolutely amazing. He's charming, funny, and smart, and the whole hall was applauding and cheering. Someone called him a political rockstar on TV today, and I couldn't agree more.
Bogdan said so @ 02:40 PM

July 25, 2004

I'm not mad at all today. Wow. Weird. It's been a wonderful day. I slept till 1pm. That was so embarrassing. Dave usually wakes up after me. I guess I was tired from going out the night before. We went to this crappy club. It felt as if we were at a high school prom or something. NONE of the songs were remixed at all, and many of them weren't really good for dancing. It was as if we were listening so someone's downloaded mp3 playlist (some of the songs were even bad quality). Oh well...

Today, as I was saying, was very nice though... We went to the beach. It's as if you're in a completely different place while you're there. It's quiet, and calm, and "Dawson's Creek," and now my inner demon is asleep... -.-
Bogdan said so @ 09:47 PM

July 23, 2004

My first week in Toronto is almost over. It began with some very relaxing days... boring even. It was what I expected and wanted. Yesterday, however, I've been faced yet again with the issue that will probably be the principal cause for the potential failure of my relationship. Almost two years ago I came out to my family, and let them know who I was. It was a very hard thing to do. I've never been that scared in my entire life, but I did it, and it became the hugest victory ever for me because it was so personal.

So yesterday, Dave's mother wanted to visit. Dave's mother does not know who her son really is. Dave's mother is partly responsible for brain washing her son into believing in traditional values, and "normality." While he's managed to accept who he is to himself, he seems to find it impossible to admit that to his parents who, I think, have the right to know. Or maybe they don't, seeing how they've raised a coward...

The mother was coming, and I was sinking, I was shutting down. I didn't want too look at, listen, or touch Dave. Of all people, he was going to be the person who was going to deny me and take my greatest victory away from me. You know what I was supposed to do? Take a walk during the visit. Get out. On the street. At fucking 10pm... and stay there till God-knows-when. In the end, Dave called his mother, and told her it wasn't a good time. I didn't yell, I didn't cry, but my face was black and my blood was fire.

Now, I'm home alone. He's over at his parents home, having diner. He believes this is not as bad as what almost occured yesterday. Of course, he's missing the point, but you know, he didn't even realize why I was upset yesterday! He thought I was mad at him for being late from work. He doesn't seem to get how big a deal this is, and I've told him about it so many times, so many times. Idiot.

So here's the thing: I'm gonna have a great summer, and at the same time I'll be monitoring the little man's behavior. Hopefully, he'll become a great person, brave, the type of individual of which I'll be proud. If not, it's dumpster time. I don't want to talk of love, in fact I don't want to talk of any feelings because it's all in vain. I've done so in the past, and so what? It doesn't work with him. It's not the type of talk that his brain records, not something worthy of any consideration. Fine.
Bogdan said so @ 11:09 PM

July 17, 2004

P.S.--My birthday was on Monday and NONE of my friends or family remembered. The only people who wished me "Happy Birthday!" on the day were the 3 people I had sex with throughout my life, and who, amazingly, found ways to contact me. Great. I guess I should be fucking more people, including family members in order for my b-day to be aknowledged.
Bogdan said so @ 01:21 PM

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Many things have happened!

Japanese is now OVER, and I'm actually hoping for a good grade. The final exam was five pages of very tangled grammatical noodles. We had some sentences that were mixing about 5 grammar topics all at once. Eh, we'll see what happens...

Dave's now here, and we're going to Toronto tomorrow. I'm kind of tired, but soon I won't be doing much excpet for playing videogames. I plan to look for a job there, but I don't know if that will work out.

I'm now doing laundry (!!!), and trying to think what we could eat for lunch (!!!). Since my parents have been vacationing in Mexico for the past week, there's only me, my brother and Dave living in the house. It is now 1:11pm on a Saturday and Sabin (bro) and Dave are still sleeping... yeah... shitty. Dirty dishes are scattered in various locations throughout the house, and whenever one of us gets hungry, he just flees to downtown and gets some fast food rather than figuring out how to prepare the many frozen "goodies" that are left in the refrigerator.

I hope the rest of my summer will be fun...
Bogdan said so @ 01:15 PM

July 8, 2004

I was having a stupid fight with the boyfriend the other night, and then it hit me... wait a minute! I don't care at ALL about what this person has to say to me. I don't respect him! Then of course I sent a looong e-mail filled with stabs and harsh criticisms, and ... poof. Nothing much happened. His response was tame and lame and, yet again, not answering most of my concerns. So then it's quite evident that he don't much care about what I'm saying either. HAHAHA! This is turning into one hellova relationship. AWWW! Based on fights and purpously indifferent attitudes... CRAP! I think I'm married.
Bogdan said so @ 09:37 PM

July 7, 2004

There are so many... unique people in my Japanese class! There's the guy who got dumped by his girlfriend and has developed a very strong hate for women, and you can see his rage boiling under his skin. He's twitching too. No one knows when was the last time he successfully blinked *nsynch.

Then there's the girl who's so insane that she seems stuck in a perpetual loop of having her period every single day of her life. She starts laughing when the teacher asks her questions, and promptly admits that she has no idea what the hell we've been doing all day. Then she gets confused for a moment, her face changes color, and she almost starts crying. She then puts her face in her hands and tells her boyfriend she can't do this in a tone that makes you think someone just asked her to give birth to a rusty refrigerator. It's just a fucking sentence! CHILLAX--hahahaha that word is so stupid!

Then there's the megahyper guy. What's that? A new grammar topic? OH MY GOD, that's SO interesting, I found 12 loosely-related topics in this old book a homeless guy peed on just before I beat him up and stole it from him, and I have my dictionary, did I show you my dictionary, it's good, it's really good, and it was cheap because I let the fat sales goth girl fuck me in the ass with a baseball bat, oh and I figured out how to jerk off by using my Japanese textbook, see, that's why it's so deformed now *wink, wink, MOTHA FUCKING WINK*

OH! And who can forget that guy whose hair says "I'm so 70's I don't wash, YEAH BABY!" It's funny how he gets upset cos the class laughs at him without ever realizing that maybe, just maybe he is indeed a moron. The sun don't shine anymo, and NEVER HAS!

And finally, the gay guy. Well... the other one. He doesn't come to school when he's sad. Such a delicate flower. He better not be sad on Friday cos he's in my team for the skit, and if he don't show, *I* am gonna be sad, so sad I'll be angry, so angry I'll be violent, so violent I'll kick his ass! Wait... maybe I should just bitchslap him instead... stay away from the ass cos he'll just be happy.
Bogdan said so @ 11:56 PM

July 4, 2004

Once in a blue moon things just work out. They happen exactly the way you wanted them to or even better.

As I was floating on various inflatables in the pool, I started thinking about last night... I met my new friends in order to go to the fireworks festival. For the second time in a row, not only did they show up but they were there EARLY despite the last minute arrangements. True, the fireworks were not that great as a whole, but the finale was quite loud and spectacular. For once, it was actually warm outside so we decided to go dancing at a club. It so happens that Radu (another friend) works night shifts very close to the club to which we were going. So I was able to leave my backpack with him in order not to pay for coat check. It also turned out that admission at that particular club was free before 11pm. And guess what? We got there at around 10:58pm, and yes, got in for free. Then for some reason, they played good music... except for some reggae tunes that freaked me out (they NEVER play reggae there; someone must've been high in the DJ booth). Oddly enough, some songs weren't even remixed at all. They were exact CD versions. I liked that.

I was planning to go back to Radu's work place and study for my upcoming Japanese exam while waiting for the public transportation to restart on Sunday morning. Fortunately, Radu told me that he had been chatting online with my brother who couldn't sleep and who didn't mind coming to pick me up. Lucky or WHAT?

WOO!
Bogdan said so @ 07:32 PM

July 2, 2004

So what else happened? OH! On Wendesday, we were visited by a group of Japanese students. I was very discouraged since they spoke no English, and my Japanese proved to be crap. There was a lot of drawing and gesticulating going on. Some of them were hot but many were oogly so meh.

Dave plans to come visit, and actually stay at my house while the parents go for a short vacation in Mexico. YES, the parents know he'll be staying here. He wants to leave a gift for them cos they're so nice. I'm personally waking up with vomit in my throat every morning now, and I'm pretty sure my hair is falling too. UGH! I really don't think it's any of his goddamn business to be friendly with my parents like that. He has his own he can continue to love and live a lie with (since he's not out to them, but he "loves" them oh-so-much and "respects" them even more) so he should leave mine alone while they enjoy each other's miserable company. Ah well...

Japanese class will end in 2 weeks. I can't believe it. I only have 3 exams and 1 skit to do and then it's over.

OH! OH! I bled in 3 test tubes and peed in a cup in order to see if I have any STDs. The results should be in the day after Japanese class ends. I hope I don't have anything. I've never done this type of medical tests so I felt I had to start at some point since I'm such a total WHORRRRRRE.
Bogdan said so @ 09:34 PM

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