September 28, 2004
I had my first driving lesson today, and I didn't hit anything/anyone! YAY!
Bogdan said so @ 09:24 PM
September 26, 2004
I had a great weekend. I'm in a relationship again. Same guy. It seems to me that we work best together when we don't see a whole lot of each other. That way it feels special every time we meet. A very significant change has taken place after our dramatic break-up, and many of the storm clouds in my head have disappeared. Add a special gesture of affection on top of that, and I was ready to give the whole thing a second chance. And have I ever mentioned how phenomenally cute he is? NO? Well he is.
Now I gotta turn my focus back to school. A little bit... Chinese dictation and Japanese quiz tomorrow... Japanese exam on Thursday.
Bogdan said so @ 09:02 PM
September 19, 2004
Yes. Hello. Starting next week, I'll be working about 10 hours/week. That will give me some more time to study. I better do that. I wanna start driving school... I wonder where to fit that too.
Dave's coming to visit next weekend. I'm happy... we're *kind of* back together. It's so lame. I'm very happy, but I don't know what this visit will mean in the end. If it's just a weekend of doing it... ugh that'll be stupid.
I'm very, very, very interested in taking part in one of those programs that allows you to go teach Engrish in Japan. It seems like such a great idea, but I dunno if they'll take me because I have a slight accent when I speak Engrish. The thought of working in my field (biochem) after graduation scares the crap outta me. Japan sounds so much more exotic...
Bogdan said so @ 10:26 AM
September 12, 2004
And now from TheStranger.com:
Dos & Don'ts & More Don'ts for Gay Boy Refugees
by Nate Lippens
So you made it out of that backwater town in one piece. Now comes the hard part--acclimating to a new place and living an openly gay life. Soon enough you will discover which bars cater to your distorted physical ideals, that meth is very bad, and that a deep tan is ugly and pre-cancerous--but what about the other stuff? Here's a cheat sheet to save you some time and trouble.
1. You are not a strong black woman. You never will be.
2. I know it was terrible being the fag in your school/small town/own mind, but don't introduce yourself to people with this information. Being gay is, and should be, the least interesting thing about you.
3. If your mother is the greatest woman who ever lived, keep it to yourself. The holiday orphans don't want to hear it. On the flip side, your family will always be a part of you even if you never speak to them again, but try not to spend your life in reaction to them.
4. Rainbow flags, bumper stickers, and wind socks are no different than Green Bay Packers fans painting their faces green and gold: a complete embarrassment. Pride can be as ugly and warping as shame.
5. Gay life can be empty and depressing, but bitching about it outside the confines of a few close friends will get you tagged as bitter. Yes, the gay mainstream is alienating with its cookie-cutter bars, bad dance music, and Queer as Folk. It's enough to make you turn straight. But electroshock doesn't work and Jesus is a sci-fi character.
6. Don't fraternize with people who haven't come out.
7. Your masculinity has most likely been called into question. Anything you do in reaction to it will be a failure. Don't try to prove or disprove anything.
8. There is a difference between being effeminate and being a queen. Being effeminate is just that--being. Being a queen is an affectation. I can't throw a ball, but I don't call anyone "girl," even female children.
9. Avoid she-bonics: referring to each other as Girl, She, and Her. "What's her problem?" That you are an idiot. This includes: Bitchslap, Girlfriend, Shit pussy, Mangina.
10. Don't be a misogynist asshole. Leave the tuna jokes back in your small town with your usage of Jew as a verb. If it weren't for lesbians and feminism, we'd still be sucking cock in truck-stop restrooms. I mean exclusively.
11. I've never been to a bathhouse. No, really. So I can't advise you on it but I do know they are basically a petri dish of STDs. If you are okay with HIV, herpes, gonorrhea, syphilis, and other STDs, by all means fuck your brains out.
12. Do not have black-and-white photos à la Bruce Weber taken of you and your beloved. And if you must, then don't hang them up as "art" in your home.
13. Don't kiss and tell. Or fuck, suck, rim, or fist and tell. Think of your bedroom like Vegas: What happens there stays there. It will keep you from gossiping, which is the true heart of darkness, and will create a sense of mystery. Besides the cruelty of nicknaming someone Princess Tiny Meat (it would make a wonderful DJ name though), it isn't good karma. And what modestly endowed dude who sucks a mean cock is going to want to go home with you after that?
14. Bros before hos. I learned this the hard way: Do not sleep with a friend's ex-boyfriend. Ever. Even if they say they don't care, they do.
15. You are 200 times more likely to be an alcoholic than your straight counterparts.
16. Beauty fades. Develop some inner resources, otherwise when it goes, those of us with less far to fall will laugh at you. To your aging face.
17. Men, like lotto tickets, should not be had every day. The odds are the same.
18. Romantic friendships will end up being neither.
19. Cultivate friendships with straight men. "But we have nothing in common," you say? Bullshit. You are men. Many straight men are in fact softer and sweeter than their faggoty brothers.
20. Make friends with at least one dyke, you silly faggot. When the shit goes down--for instance your mother dies--fags will drop you in an instant if you aren't fun. Dykes will come to your house with food.
21. Don't make friendships based solely around how outrageous you are. It's a shitty kind of attention.
22. Don't refer to anyone as a fag hag. It's rude. Also don't hang out with fag hags.
23. Don't date people who have scars that are older than you.
24. After all of that, you are still not a strong black woman.
Bogdan said so @ 06:23 PM
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Feelin' stupid? I know I am! :)
Bogdan said so @ 12:17 AM
September 8, 2004
This sucks. A boy had feelings for me in the first place when I didn't think twice about him and now I caught the same feelings. I don't know when I'll see him again. It'll be months at least.
Erma said so @ 04:13 PM
September 5, 2004
I went to the Tam Tams today and fell asleep for 1 hour and a half on the grass in the nearby park. That was fun. I found myself having a ton of free time all of the sudden. Well, I'm supposed to study but whatever.
It's really bad right now... I miss Dave... Ugh I must move on. I'm messed up... I feel like I'm battling myself inside. I'm fighting in order to control what I feel, but the abundance of emotion seems to drown my judgement at times. This is difficult.
Bogdan said so @ 10:59 PM
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Me and Sabin went to drop off Kelly (Sabin's ex g/f) at some club, and then we went drivin'! I'm gonna enroll in a driving school soon, but right now this whole driving thing doesn't seem to be all that hard. I can even get the parking right. I'm not doing all the checking before changing lanes and things like that, but at least I'm finally signalling when I should. I'm SOOOOO gonna get my license! I'm SOOO doing this.
Bogdan said so @ 01:34 AM
September 3, 2004
The E to your B is back. I started school too. I'm out of my mind and am taking four psychology classes this semester. Two of them are "L" courses, where these courses require extra writing to be done compared to the regular courses. I'm probably going to kill myself before the semester is over because everyone knows I hate to write papers. Well not really... I just hate the writing process.
Yesterday was so weird for me. I don't know if it was the outfit I wore or my smiling face just made me look so approachable, but I talked to so many people in and out of my classes. I've been late to class the last couple days because on my way to class I'd see people I know and start having a conversation with them and lose track of time. Then in my classes I'm talking to complete strangers like we know each other. And then a few people have come up to me asking for directions on campus. I almost felt like I had a social life.
I'm turning 21 in 3 months!
Erma said so @ 09:54 AM
September 1, 2004
WOO! School started. Science is science. We're expected to know about 800 characters by the end of Chinese 1. In Japanese 2, the teacher spoke about 3 words in English in TOTAL. She expects us to actually understand most of what she's saying in Japanese. It's quite tricky. Work was exhausting, and it'll be horrible for the next 2 weeks.
Bogdan said so @ 10:49 PM
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