October 31, 2002
Nicole Kidman and Renee Zellwegger are filming a movie called "Cold Mountain" in... Romania (!). Having lived there for 16 years, I cannot help but wonder DE CE? (why?)
Bogdan said so @ 08:02 PM
October 30, 2002
"Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become
Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me"
I wanna ride Avril Lavigne all the way to downtown. I'd let her ride me all the way back home. I'm a sick, sick child.
Bogdan said so @ 10:06 PM
October 29, 2002
I screwed up the physio midterm too! It was funny since half of it was multiple choice on top of multiple choice. We had 4 answers to choose from, and after that we got another list with: 1) a, b, c are true; 2) a and c are true; 3) b and d are true; 4) only d is true; and 5) ALL or NONE are true. Do you have any idea how well one must know his shit in order to get those questions right??? Yeah, I fucked it up good. It's always so much fun to dream of how potentially brilliant you are a few minutes after you hand in a multiple choice test. You know you didn't study much, but maybe, just maye you've been incredibly lucky this time, and maybe you'll even end up with 100%. After all, lightning DOES strike some people, no? And then you just can't resist the temptation to consult your notes on the metro, and you go: 1 wrong, 2 wrong, THAT was the answer (?!), fuck--I can't believe I fucked that one up, etc. Then you get home, and you realize you haven't finished the Anal Chem lab report that's due for tomorrow, and you feel sad, and hungry (because it's been a long day of cramming for physio), and horny (since it's been a little while since you got any). AWWWWW!~
Bogdan said so @ 11:16 PM
October 28, 2002
Radu knows how to flatter women. There are four types of girls: cute (=ugly), funny (=fat), hot (=do her, then leave the country), and beautiful (=the future nagging wife). Radu is such a great person.
Bogdan said so @ 10:10 PM
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I came, I went, I did it.
The test took me an hour and 15 minutes to take. I could've used an extra 5 or 10 minutes but blah. whatever. I answered every question but one. ONE! I completely didn't remember the definition to one vocabulary word. and I think I mixed up the definition to another. But other than that, I wrote more than I needed to for the other questions and extra credit. So, my teacher and I both are crossing our fingers that I get a better grade this time around.
It's so weird, my teacher wants to lay down the rules and set us straight but she also is friendly and humorous with us. It confuses me because she tells me what I need to do in class to get better grades, but her laid back attitude should make class more comfortable but it freaks me out even more.
Anyhoo, there's a long list of basic requirements that I still need to take ALONG with all the courses to get my B.S. in Psych. I don't even know if I really wanna declare a minor to add onto that! (and yes, I know there are people who double-major so i'm nothing compared to them) I mapped things out the other day and if I take a couple summer courses the next 2 summers, take a full load of courses during the regular semesters, pass every single class, I could have a chance of graduating in 4 years. I don't see that happening. I'll be one of the growing number of college students who will graduate in 5 years. According to credits, I'm still considered freshman status. Sad. In a couple weeks I have to already have chosen Spring's classes and have another bill coming to me in December. Goodness. It's about halfway through the semester and I have to think about next semester's classes when I'm not even sure if I'll pass all the ones I'm taking now.
Tell me to shut up. How's orgy and anal chem going Bogdan?
Erma said so @ 08:32 PM
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So I was trimming my armpit hair when all of the sudden I realized that Erma has her third Ethics test today. After I was done, I turned away from the mirror, and I was absolutely mesmerized by how interesting my butt looked in my new pants. Anyway, the first thing I did after that was to set up an *Ermie Shrine*TM. I found plenty of useless stuff around like old shoes or new Sabin shoes and new Sabin clothes (who cares?! he's just my brother) that I plan to use as sacrifices to the gods. This way I KNOW Erma will pass. I'll burn it all. I'll spit on it too because I've heard that's big in the witchcraft community. I shall do a dance too. Naked? Ummm... It may be too cold for that, and the neighbors will stare. They're ALWAYS staring...shhhh... SHHHH!
Bogdan said so @ 02:37 PM
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This is what I've been reduced to. Posting pictures of cute cats waving.
Erma said so @ 01:29 PM
October 27, 2002
I HATE shopping for clothes. I HATE IT SO MUCH! You have no idea. Every damn time I chose something, it's either too small or too large, and when I finally get the size right, it's still looks kind of weird. It takes FOREVER! This whole process drives me insane. Today I bought some clothes, and obviously I'm quite angry right now. I'm happy too though because this time the clothes look damn fine! Oh and one more thing: people who diss WalMart are ignorant, pretentious, and stupid. They really don't know what the hell they're talking about >:)
Bogdan said so @ 02:31 PM
October 26, 2002
I was studying in the liberry with Pik and Ray.
Ray: My chair smells bad.
Me: That's because you farted.
Later, a man shows up.
Pik: This is Bogdan. Bogdan, this is Walt.
I didn't hear. I turn to Walt.
Me: I'm sorry, what?
Walt: Bogdan.
Me: No! Why are you so stupid?! That's MY name!
Walt: I thought you asked me what your name was.
Me: WHAT?! What am I crazy? Why the hell would I do that?!
...
Walt: There are so many Asians in the library.
Me: I know. I feel so white.
Walt: We can bring some paint and darken you.
Me: Then what? I'd be black! How is that any better??
So... do you think I make a good first impression?
I bought "Sleepy Hollow" on DVD. It's one of those SHHWING movies. I'm so happy.
Bogdan said so @ 07:07 PM
October 25, 2002
Before I died, I saw the ring. It wasn't a good movie really. It had parts I liked, but that's about it. It was supposed to have a really creepy atmosphere, but it never got to me. Too bad. I wanna see a good movie dammit!
I wasted a lot of time today. I'll regret it soon.
Halloween will soon be here. I really don't see what's the point of this mess besides the candy.
Bogdan said so @ 11:11 PM
October 24, 2002
I'm having an apoplexy attack right now. I got 81% (A-) in Orgy Chem 2. This is the highest science score I got in this damn university. Last time I took this class, my highest mark was 32% :) Could it be possible that I'm smarter than I think I am? PFFFFT, nah... just lucky, as usual. I cannot believe I got both NMR/IR spectra analyses right. I got the second molecular structure right by accident. I had about 5 possible structures written down, and I picked one at random. Phew... I know I fucked up Microbio though. I only read the material once, and while comparing answers with some girls, I noticed that I was WAY off. Next week: Physiology. The week after: Molecular Bio. The week after that: Anal Chem.
Bogdan said so @ 07:01 PM
October 23, 2002
Yeah, yesterday's soil extraction lab report took me ALL afternoon to do. It was really hard to understand because the teacher forgot to give us some formulas. Good thing I had the labs from the girl who did them last semester when he also "forgot" to tell the students about them (she had an additional page for corrected data). Ohohohohoh, but I found those formulas. I had them! HA!
Today we played with a gas chromatography. It took more than 2 full hours for us to understand the machine, how to adjust it (using a bunch of knobs and isotherms for translating flow rates into pressure units), and how to use the shittiest data aquisition software in the universe. We fucked up the first run at least 6 times. At some point, the piston of the micro-syringe flew into the ceiling because of the pressure inside the machine. This micro-syringe was super crappy. It looked just like a regular syringe only that the piston was very thin. I remember the ones we used at Dawson for protein electrophoresis. They were electronic and kind of hard to adjust. At least they looked cool :p Our team was also the only one that "did something," and made the chromatographer spew black smoke for a minute or so. We rock!
I'm behind in a bunch of classes. I actually did some problems today for Anal Chem. I'm surprised! Our new lecturer in Molecular Bio is German. I call him the nazi since he made a big deal about some discipline issue in the first class of the semester. I wish I could remember what exactly that issue was, but I wasn't paying attention. He makes the lamest jokes. He's such a prick. He makes us print slides that don't have any text on them (only figures) so we have to write it all by hand, and he goes super fast.
Bogdan said so @ 09:46 PM
October 21, 2002
I think that with a little luck I may pass both of today's mid-terms!!! I feel a bit less depressed than yesterday. I'm actually a bit happy. That's good. I'm still quitting university though. I'm soooo sick of this shit... ugh... Well mmmmaybe I won't. I'm afraid of Donald kicking my ass... oh well...
And tomorrow I have Organic 2 AGAIN! Will it ever end? If I fail it again, I'm out of the scientific field, and I'm never coming back! NNNNEVER! EEEEEVER! MWAAAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH.... yes... so... I still have Physiology, Molecular Bio, and Anal Chem left. I'll fuck'em up GOOD! OH YESSS!
And when I hear people talking about how they LOVE their classes, it drives me insane! WHAT IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?!
Oh I found someone who did Anal Chem last year, and she has the labs. She'll give them to me tomorrow. This will hopefully make my life easier because sometimes I REALLY don't get what calculations I'm supposed to do and how.
Bogdan said so @ 11:14 PM
October 20, 2002
Isn't he hot??? LOL
I did a Google image search on "bogdan." Apparently, he's a Bogdan also. Interestingly, there's also an older pic of yours truly on the results page #2. I'm holding a paper that says "Happy Birthday Erma!"--aaah the memories...
Bogdan said so @ 11:24 PM
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I broke my promise. I didn't study enough. Tomorrow I will pay. I tried. I really did. It's as if something in my head isn't cooperating. I'm suspicious of everything. Right now, I am convinced that the aspartame and acesulfame-potassium in my diet coke and diet 7up has gotten to my brain, developing tumors, and slowing me down. Oh crap! I just looked at the label on my gum pack: those two substances are in that too! Clearly, this is the cause of all my problems. I fucking hate this gum also... minty gum is shit!
So anyway I might pass Microbio because it's multiple choice, and you never know; I might get lucky. Org 2 however, will be hard. Dammit! I'm already seeing myself failing this class a second time. If this happens, I'm quitting this program (if not university altogether). I've read evrything for both classes, and I did a bunch of Org 2 problems too, but it's not enough. You have to do TONS of problems on the different types of spectra in order to become good at identifying elements and their organization in compounds. In addition, we have a bunch of stuff we're supposed to know about alcohols and ethers too. It's just hopeless.
I don't feel right. This is actually a step forward for me since last semester I really didn't give half a flying intercourse. Maybe, just maybe I'll wake up before it's way too late. Maybe I'll pass in the end. It's a lot of work, and not having a passion for what you do makes the whole process feel like torture. Liking some parts is NOT enough. One must absolutely love Science, do her every day, and have her babies in order to succeed.
Bogdan said so @ 11:14 PM
October 19, 2002
You want coitus? YOU CAN'T HANDLE COITUS!!!
Dancing is the perpendicular expression of a horizontal desire.
Brilliant.
Bogdan said so @ 10:59 PM
October 18, 2002
How about I quit university for good, and become a loser, i.e. an ahhhrtist? I really don't think I belong there. I can't connect with anyone because I'm immature and evil.
I saw "Red Dragon" today. I must say it's definitely the feel-good movie of the year. I enjoyed the actors (except for Ed Norton who had a really bad haircut, and whose acting was WAY off in this one), the music, the look of many scenes, and especially the fat black girl sitting near me who was yelling "shit!" after every scene even when there was nothing scary on the screen. I wanted to go "mmmmhmmmm" and do a neck-and-hip kind of thing, but I felt it would have been inappropriate.
Bogdan said so @ 11:52 PM
October 17, 2002
Can someone tell me why tha fuck am I watching "Friends" every fucking Thursday when I fucking hate those fucking losers and those fucking lame storylines? Well... I guess Lisa Kudrow is kind of okay... funny sometimes...
Bogdan said so @ 07:35 PM
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I have two mid-term exams this Monday: Org 2 and Microbio. I'll study a lot this weekend. I promise. I was really depressed yesterday. I think I was very tired, and that fucked me up. I tried reading about titrations in Anal Chem, but I couldn't finish the chapter. Today, I'm happy for no reason. The exams seem exciting to me. You know... I think I have problems. That makes me cool, right?
Why do I worry about stupid stuff? I should worry about school, but I don't care enough about it. I still hate McGill. I hate the fact that it has a reputation, and that every time I say the name, people look at me as if I'm smart or priviledged or something. It's NOT that hard to get in, REALLY! My mind is almost always absent from class. I seem to think more and more about love and dooooing it. I'm very pissed off about that, but I can't help it. Daydreaming is such a waste.
That stupid dirt lab is gonna be a major pain in the ass. I'm not sure how I'm supposed to use a bunch of freaky formulas so I don't know how the hell to finish the report. My TA was telling me how she's finishing her major in Chem, how she writes one 50-page lab report after another, and how she LOVES IT! What a bitch... I mean she's super nice, but she should shut up sometimes.
OH! Last Physio class, Fro'Ho' gave me evil looks cos I was talking and laughing with Raymond Ging-Yue. Then, we stopped, but she and her girlfriends started. Then I started telling Ray how I was curious if small pieces of paper would glue to Fro'Ho's 'fro, and how I should probably try throwing some and see. Obviously, I did all this while whispering loudly enough so that she could hear everything. HA! THEN, she turned, and I'm pretty sure she wanted to kill me. After one perverted "blow me, biatch" grin from me, she turned away disgusted. I rock, can't you tell?!
Bogdan said so @ 07:31 PM
October 16, 2002
OH! You should see my lab partners in Anal Chem. GGGGGAAAAD, they're idiots. One of them talks on one of those condescending tones I "love" so much. I was shaking a flask with dirt and chloroform in it today, and he was just fascinated. He stared at the thing for 5 fuckin' minutes! The other guy is even more brilliant. He gave me the disk with the data from the last lab, but he never asked me for my phone number or e-mail in order to get it back. Good thing *I* was lucid enough to ask for *his* goddamn number. I called him at the last minute to ask him if he was planning to do the report this millenium, hoping that he was shitting his pants by that time. Of course, he wasn't concerned at all. He wasn't even sure if the lab was for the next day. People sometimes...
Bogdan said so @ 07:19 PM
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hi i'm earth. have we met?
you know Chris, the guy that looks exactly like the guy i had a crush on as an adolescent? he's so dumb! or slow. or maybe both. last friday, Pam went to go ask him when the deskworkers get their paychecks... i was down there with her...LOL he stared at her for a good 30 seconds before he answered, "on thursday." DUH! it's friday dummy dum dum!
and i thought he only gazed longingly at me whenever i pass him. rofl. yeah, he don't mean nuttin' to me at all.
i just thought this was funny, i have nobody else to tell this to.
Erma said so @ 02:48 PM
October 14, 2002
Do you wanna know what I have to do tomorrow? DO YOU?! I have to read about 13 sections in Organic Chem 2, do the problems for each, and then do the problems at the end of the chapter. I have to write a lab report for Anal Chem, and prepare the next lab. I have to read the titration chapter in Anal Chem, do the 2 problems that I didn't do in the last chapter, and then do the ones for this one. I must also read about 20 additional pages in Molecular Bio. I was up to date till Saturday evening when they added NEW pages. Shit is pouring from everywhere, and I'm DROWNING! I'm fried, SO FRIED! And it's all my fault because I don't work hard enough, and I procrastinate, and I'm a total loser... I don't like myself today, and tomorrow I'll be very, very scared.
Who will ever tell ME that everything will be OK??? Who will hold MY hand, give ME my pacifier, and rock ME to sleep??? No one. No one ever will.
Bogdan said so @ 11:11 PM
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The Mexican Jumping Bean.
Joan emailed this to me a couple weeks ago. all hail mister bean.
Erma said so @ 05:56 PM
October 13, 2002
"I bring you love."
Bogdan said so @ 10:22 PM
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I finally have a poster in my room! It's a "taller" version of this one. In mine, the background is completely black. It's the coolest thing ever!
Bogdan said so @ 04:39 PM
October 12, 2002
So I get this e-mail from Catherine on Wednesday, telling me how she couldn't meet me at the main gates of the college on Saturday morning. She said we should rather meet directly at the gym. I thought it was a bit weird, but I didn't think it was anything important. Guess the reason for this! It turns out that her stepfather, fucking asshole fanatic Muslim piece of shit and stinking garbage that he is, started yelling at her earlier in the week, barking how she shouldn't waste her time going at the gym, and how she shouldn't spend so much time in the library because all college people are on drugs and they're sex predators, and he just won't tolerate any of that. EXCUSE ME!? Terrorism against my Catherine will not stand!!! First of all, Catherine is the most decent, nice, and hard-working person I know. She is a total saint. Poor girl was scared that her stepfather would send someone to follow her today. I was so fucking furious!!! She doesn't even have a computer at home. She doesn't have the money to buy one, and of course the bastard won't buy her one (probably because it's a bad influence also). So she spends hours and hours at the library, typing her very long essays every evening and every weekend of her life. And her mother didn't say anything! Some women are so stupid. It sickens me. Imagine that Catherine was asking me if it my parents were as strict as her assface of a stepfaher is! She's such an optimist that she was still hoping that I'd say "yes." He's not even home four days out of the week, and when he finally decides to show up, he starts with the paranoia and the hate. He's lived in some cave country for most of his life, then came here and married her mom (who doesn't like him anymore, but won't divorce him because it's just too much of a drag), and now imposes his "values" on these women. He doesn't do it out of love. He's just pissed off for whatever reason, and feels that he has the right to go in a home he's often absent from, and demand respect. The saddest part about this is that I'm a hater now too. I'm just a pathetic victim of the evil he helps propagate.
Bogdan said so @ 10:57 PM
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In a 3 hour period this afternoon I had the craziest dreams. Was it the incense that was burning? Who knows. But anyway, one dream consisted of being at a zoo and seeing a donkey sticking it to a different species animal while that one was having a baby. sick. that's the last time i watch "Let's Make a Deal" before falling asleep. I forget the others but I'm sure there were other symbolic imagery relating to someone's sexual frustration. Crazy. I fell asleep in my friend's room so I hope I didn't snore so loud to scare her.
Laundry.
Erma said so @ 05:03 PM
October 11, 2002
Did ya watch Will and Grace last night? Towards the end, Eric McCorncrap and Debra Messedup get into a huge serious argument. He tells her to move out, and she sends him to hell. I loved that. It was as if these actors could finally act for about 40 seconds. Their relationship seemed real for once. I was so sick of that bizarre "friendship" they had going. Unfortunately, it's not the end of the series, and they'll be "fine" by next week. Eh...
Last night, I had three dreams. I woke up after each one of them (that's why I can remember them so well I guess). In the first one, I was in the passenger seat of a car. The driver didn't seem to notice my presence. We were chasing a woman through a grassy field. The weird thing was that she was runing really slowly (not in slow-motion, just slowly), and the car was going even slower. In the second one, a girl was talking with the severed head of another girl, which was placed on the floor next to a water fountain in some school. The severed head was bleeding and bleeding. It was talking less and less, and the words became whispers until its mouth stopped moving. I don't remember what it was saying , but I remember I didn't care. The third dream was VERY sexy and perverted so I can't really describe any of it. It was lots of fun, and no, it didn't feature anyone that anyone else but me would know.
I saw "Rules of Attraction" tonight. It was supposed to be REALLY depressing, but since I went with Radu we were laughing our asses off the whole time. Well since the characters are drunk, on drugs, demented, gay or all of the above you can imagine that it gets funny really fast.
Bogdan said so @ 08:40 PM
October 9, 2002
My best friends are people I've never met. My best friends are people who respect my feelings and my peace. My best friends are people I look up to for some reason or another, and who are absolutely brilliant and sweet but not too sweet. I wonder sometimes if these beings are truth or hyped ideal. Would I ever dare to find out? Fear of disappointemt is the name for this. I reject people, events, knowledge as a whole. Ambition drives me insane, and failure is a risk not worth the fight, so I avoid it all. They should think I'm stupid so that way they won't laugh if I'm sometimes incoherent, and slow, and lost. I try my best to just be quiet, and ignore. Sometimes, however I do smile and laugh because in some hidden part of my brain only I know the existence of, I still find fire and I hope just a bit. But then they stare. And then I stop... reminded I should grow up, forced to see the sky as gray even though there are no clouds, often made to belive that the right values always constitute a straight never-branching path leading towards a point that may or may not be happiness... It's crushing me. It makes me numb. It leads me to believe that there's no point. There has to be one though. There better be one. What will it take to find the force to fight again fearless, and without being consumed by zeal? Just don't say "love." Please.
Bogdan said so @ 11:35 PM
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you know what? i missed nicholas lea's appearance on NYPD Blue. dammit! i thought it was tonight or tomorrow night, but nope, it was last night. good job erma. good job.
Erma said so @ 07:40 PM
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that's right!
Erma said so @ 06:30 PM
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Have you noticed that the "A,B,C" song and the "Twinkle, Twinke" song have the same melody? There's also a French song called "Ah! Vous dirais-je maman!" that has the exact same tune.
Bogdan said so @ 05:37 PM
October 8, 2002
Sing your A, B, C's! You won't expect what you see.
Erma said so @ 08:40 PM
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AWWW! Ermie's having luuuuv problems. OH well, it happens to all of us every once in a while. You'll move on and find someone else... or he'll just dump that girl and fall for you... or you'll become all psychotic and kill her or him or both... or you'll just take a seat in a corner, real quiet, and start thinking about developing an eating disorder... or you'll write a song about it, then write 10 more variations of the same song, make an album, sell it, become famous, and rub it in his face... I could go on and on, you know :) Penis and Pussy don't always get along. That's why people "turn gay," DUH!
It's so funny to see what people look for when they accidentally find your site. "PikaPikaChick's Sparkly Happy Fun Page Of Doom" is the best webpage title of the year!
Bogdan said so @ 02:31 PM
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Someone came to my site searching for "bowling team names funny clever". I know some clever and (sorta) funny bowling team names. You could've asked me. My mom and dad and oldest sister MJ love going bowling. Unfortunately the love and skill of it hasn't been passed onto the genes of Joan and I, but that's alright, we've found our talents elsewhere. Having a clever name for your bowling team seems to add some fun to the activity, but choose carefully. Sometimes these names can (and will) get corny. as if having a clever name for your bowling isn't already corny... Some names off the top of my head are "the king pins," "the gutter gals," "lickity splits," "the misfits," "high rollers," "the pickups," "spare me," "split ends," "holy rollers," "hit or miss," "we've got balls," the list goes on. some teams even have whole phrases for their name so they use initials on the roster like "rtfb" (roll the fuckin' ball)... ok i'm not sure if that's ever been done but I know I used say that sometimes. if you know of any neat bowling team names, feel free to add onto the list.
some more search requests that confuse me.
woops, i meant to post this on my site.
Erma said so @ 01:02 PM
October 7, 2002
Did I tell you that my 3 hour chem class was so long & boring that one time I fell asleep twice in one class period? yeah. but there's one more class then the exam and i'm done with the class. BOOYAH BABY! a class that lasts exactly one month. if this is how summer school is, then i may take a course or two next summer. it's not so bad. the funny thing is that i don't think we've ever had a class actually run the whole 3 hours. woo. hoo.
There's this RA guy in my dorm that looks just like this guy i used to know and had the biggest crush on. so everytime i see him, i think he's the other guy and it feels like a slap in the face everytime that nothing ever came out of it... torture!!! i'd try to hook up with him but he's dating a freshman at UConn. a junior dating a freshman! that's another slap in the face for me!!! sometimes the penis pisses me off. you guys let it talk for you, make the first move with it, play with it, and get it stuck in zippers. it controls you too much.
what's my point? i have no idea. i'm just drinking a lot of hate-orade at the moment.
Erma said so @ 11:33 PM
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Yes. New layout. The main pic made people (the 3 or 4 passing by here once in a blue moon) react in a variety of ways. That's good... I think. Sabin screwed up the code. Then Erma fixed it. Then I screwed it up a bit too. I suck at this so badly... OH! I must thank Radu for fusing the pics together. For those who care, that's my "evil genius look"TM. I looked waaaay too nice and dumb (which I am in fact but SHHHH!) in the previous pic. I've come to realize that "nice" gets annoying after a while. It's often just a façade people use in order to attempt fooling me. As if I don't know that everyone is out to get me! PFFFFT! "Nice" is also the politically correct attitude to have, and I'm having huge problems with the PC aspects of life as of late. So SUCK IT, PEOPLE!
I was all happy today at school. I'm not sure why. I was actually paying attention! Microbio is always a challenge since it starts early. Also the fact that the teacher speaks a maximum of 5 words per minute doesn't help either. In Physio, it was hilarious to notice how Dr. Ann was about to fall asleep while listening to Dr. Freaky's lecture.
I did no readings this weekend. I must start at some point... hmmm. I'll have my first real lab in Anal Chem this week so I have to prepare that too. My usual Org 2 teacher better show her skinny ass in tomorrow's class. The replacement guy is driving me nuts.
Bogdan said so @ 02:37 PM
October 6, 2002
What a surprise! Thank you Bogdan! Thank you Sabin! I love you both. This is great. I think any problems you were having on this layout I've fixed by now. hugshugshugskisseskisseskisses.
Erma said so @ 07:41 PM
October 5, 2002
Today felt surreal. I went runing as usual after not sleeping well for the fourth night in a row. I was expecting to pass out, but then I didn't... so I did 33 minutes (woo!). Then I came home and all I remember is waking up at 6pm. My parents were shocked I was home. They thought I was still downtown. They never thought to check my room (???).
I just read what I posted last night. ROFL! I love it! Apparently, I'm very inspired when I'm tired.
I'm now listening to "The Ketchup Song":
"aserejé ja deje
dejebe tu dejebe
deseri iowa a mavy
an de bugui an de güidibidi
a sereje ja deje
dejebe tu dejebe
deseri iowa a mavy
an de bugui an de güidibidi"
Bogdan said so @ 07:02 PM
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I went to a party-double-air-quotes-double-air-quotes tonight. This was my last one. I've never been in a room filled with so many annoying people before. It was a waste of time, money (it wasn't worth $5--$5, can you imagine?), and especially my patience. I stayed an hour because that's how long one must stay in order for the universe to perceive, analyze, and record the fact that you're giving it the finger. The gradual increasing presence of violent thoughts within my skull soon made me realize that I had to either go soon or come back home to mother and father in a police car. I do not enjoy being stared at this frequently. I feel provoked. I had more than one mental flash of me breaking my glass, and jamming it into someone's forehead or kidney. All this may be a result of my lack of sleep last night. I'm not 100% sure if I'm actually typing this or if I'm dreaming that I'm typing it. Either way, it seems to reflect my thoughts just fine so far. So yeah, I should start studying again, and forget all about this social bullshit people like hyping so much. I am angry. I am extremely upset. I am a hater. *eyes wide open, looking into the camera* I am ready for my punk phase now.
I also saw an absolutely brilliant Japanese anime today, called "Spirited Away." It was bizarre, and funny, and imaginative. It was as if I was on drugs without having to worry about any dangerous effects (I wonder what people who DO watch movies while stoned will get out of this story). It made me happy for a while. I must see it again. At some point, there was a technical problem, and the movie stopped. After the showing, everyone got a free pass good for one other movie. I might just use that to see it again. I absolutely loved this film!
Tonight, I am bipolar.
Bogdan said so @ 01:39 AM
October 3, 2002
I'm stressed. Don't you know?
I often wonder why I didn't grow up to be a serial killer. I have the hate, but I guess I'm usually just mad at myself. Seeing how teen suicide is out this year... ;) Eh, I'm not that depressed anyway. I'm not even depressed enough!!! I can't even motivate myself to overeat and become daddy's chubby little secret. I need to do something with my life. I need to find a goal. It doesn't even have to make any sense. Just SOMETHING! I should start drawing again, but I won't because artists are pretentious demented losers. They should be kicked in the head. Yes.
What the hell am I gonna do with this stupid life? It's so... pointless right now. I should get a dog. Dogs are always happy.
All I do is read and read, trying to remember information I don't want to remember. I like runing on Saturdays. I feel... free. Everything disappears behind me into nothingness.
Bogdan said so @ 10:11 PM
October 1, 2002
There's soooo much stuff to remember in these science classes of mine. I won't even dare complain because I KNOW that the trully hard stuff is still far away in a land called U3. Wonderful terms like "Glycosylphosphatidylinositol" (don't worry, I had it on a piece of paper--I can't remember it YET!) fill the numerous pages from top to bottom. Will I ever get to a point in my life when I'll look back and go "Aaawww college... those were great times"? That's all I hear from my parents and even from Donald. They go on about how much fun it was to learn (freaks!!!), make friends, and go to parties. I'm not interested in meeting people and going to parties anyway, but how does one manage to do that? Those places must be filled with students majoring in sissy faculties like arts, languages, environment (those dirt-eating hippies even had an Enviro-Fest--that ain't right!!!)... and all the other non-science ones :)
Guess who shows up today in Org 2? My ex-teacher from last semester. In less than 30 seconds, I was all confused and frustrated and on the verge of getting a rash from being so annoyed. I think I must be suffering from Org 2 post-traumatic stress since I failed so miserably with him last winter. He's coming back to substitute this Thursday. I'm so scared! The thing is he's really nice and even funny, but he never tells us where to find whatever he's doing in the book, so everyone is lost. Plus, he keeps on adding material as if we didn't have enough already. He goes on and on, and all of the sudden he remembers some reaction he studied in some lab in 1907. Then, it's over. He just has to tell us all about it.
Bogdan said so @ 07:18 PM
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